I had the idea to start a blog because I have a lot to say, but the idea of going back onto social media leaves me curled up in the fetal position and shaking under my desk. I ran away from social media 5 years ago, and it’s been wonderful for my mental health, but I do feel disconnected from the writing and reading world.
I understand that no one will probably read my blog posts, because I won’t be promoting them on social media, which is kind of a conundrum. I want to express myself, to connect with people, but I would rather not be cancelled because I accidentally liked the wrong post or made a comment that got taken out of text. I feel like the shy teenage girl at the school dance, cowering in the corner of the gym, dying to bust a move on the dance floor, but terrified of putting herself out there.
For those of you who know me, and have seen me dance, you know this is soooo not me. I’m generally okay making a fool of myself, as long as no one is throwing rocks at me for it. It’s been frustrating to want to make pithy (in my opinion) comments, but have no audience for my humor…or ramblings, whatever the case may be.
I currently work one full time teaching job, one part time teaching job, and a “supposed to be part time, but I end up working a bunch of shifts” bartending job. I try to cram all my writing in during the summer, when I’m only working one job. In theory, I will eventually have books to either self-publish or submit. In reality, I have a lot of ideas and not a lot of words on the document. Some of that is laziness, some of that is life, and all of it is on me. I managed to write and get published over 20 novels and novellas while raising three daughters, coaching soccer, driving to dance classes, and teaching part time. Granted, I was younger then, but still. I wrote A LOT during nap times and while parking the kids in front of a movie for an hour.
Now, I’m the one who needs a nap, but I digress…
My hope with this blog is to have a place I can share my thoughts, connect with people, and maybe even make someone laugh. I don’t have a schedule for when I’m going to post, I don’t have a newsletter to let you know I have posted. In all honesty, I’m not even sure I’m going to be able to post correctly and this stupid thing will be visible, but at least I’m out on the dance floor…even if I’m the only one in the gym.