I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed right now. I have been kicking the can down the road about a number of things and now the road is coming to an end. I’ve got to figure out where I’m going and how I’m going to get there. Instead of making a plan, I just keep running around in circles, which is unlike me. I like to plan. I like plans. I’m usually great at planning.
Not now, for some reason.
I feel like I’m stuck in neutral and I just don’t have enough gas to go in any direction, so I’m spinning my wheels in place. The conversation in my brain goes something like this:
You should get your books out there. You need money and it will help to have more titles visible.
To put the books out there, you need to get the old ones scanned and get new covers for them. That takes money. You’ll be going back to work in a week, that will give you more money. Except, when I’m working 50+ hours a week, I have no time to write or do writing related stuff.
If I stop working one of the jobs, I would have more time to put into writing. But then I wouldn’t have any money to get covers or line edits.
I think the answer is I need to win the lottery, but until that happens, I guess I’ll keep spinning my wheels…